Phew!

I am exhausted. I feel like I am going to collapse and take a very long time to stand up again. Strangely, I haven't done anything to tire myself out. Physically that is. I'm losing interest in everything. Like P says, there's zero motivation (and to think she wrote a term paper on self motivation. Ha!) I'm holding onto a few people, a few memories but somewhere I feel even that's not going to last. I want to zone out. Space out. Stay away from everything. Close my eyes, block my ears, zip my mouth and just free fall. Forget about the world for a while. Take a long walk and not turn back. And return with brio! FK!!