The Grand Finale

I turned 22 yesterday! It was one of my most amazing birthdays. I expected a few calls at 12 and was pleasantly surprised by the number of people who called. I was busy yakking on the phone when I heard a knock and someone screaming "Aunty, aunty". Dhols, Agi, DB and chocolate cake - I thought it was awfully sweet of you guys to drive all the way. Thank you!! My mom set the birthday mood by baking a sinful chocolate mousse cake and laying out quite a spread at lunchtime. And yes, the wine flowed...

At around 4 PM, I left to meet Piggy. The bus journey did me a lot of good. I love spending time by myself; more so on my day. Piggy had to drop off a couple of things at Cubbon Park so off we went. While walking towards the rocks (The rocks are attached to some crazy memories) I "bumped" into Agi, DB and Aaron! It took me a while to figure out what was happening. I walked to other side of the rocks and was welcomed by Chubby, Dinku and a huge bouquet of flowers. Then Shreyas arrived and my happiness doubled :) The only person missing (apart from Chims and Pits - useless women) was Dhols... who walked in like he was on an assignment and Travel & Living was paying him. There was cake, food and lots of laughter. Stray dogs too. Greedy me couldn't keep my eyes off the gift hamper which I ultimately won by dancing to "Jungle Jungle" (Gulzar, How could you come up with lyrics like that??)The gifts in were so carefully thought of and placed in the hamper. I now own a really big bag, a purple top, a blue bangle, strawberry lotion and a beautiful collage of photographs!! Being loved is a nice feeling. We went out for dinner and had a nice time. After stuffing myself with Bavarian chocolate, I crashed at DB's place and slept late into the morning.

It's rather funny how I wanted to spend a quiet birthday this year; meeting only people who mattered the most and existing like furniture the rest of the time. That's exactly what happened but not quite the way I expected it to and I'm G-L-A-D! Getting a year older has never felt this good... this great!

Thanks guys! XXXXs and OOOOs to all of you!:)

C G Am D

Guess who brought a guitar to the hostel room? Guess who's joining her in all the madness? Prometo and I may not be experts but we sure do play and sing for the love of music! Sheer bliss! :)

Nothing's happened in the last couple of hours. I'm not PMSing. Nobody said or didn't say anything that pricked. Yet, I am in a state of sadness. Not frustrated, hurt, irritated, angry... Just sad.

Maybe it was the conversation with mom in the morning. Ma, although I would love to listen to you and do my bit to bond with the family, I'm sorry. I can't let go of what happened the last time I was there. Nobody needs to judge my abilities or make me feel like a numbskull. I am capable of managing myself rather well. And deep down, I know that you feel I'm completely justified in keeping my distance. If I do land up there, it would only be for you because you never ask me for anything.

Maybe it was a class that I don't really understand. Sometimes I feel my age is a disadvantage because my experiences of being a mad, weird, spaced out 21 year old with zero experience in the line enrich the class in absolutely no way. The material design classes are such a welcome change because we're expected to look beyond society, caste, gender blah blah.. Quite honestly, sometimes I feel people need to lighten up. Heck, except for a handful of people, I don't connect with anyone else. It bugs me. It really does. I've discovered how much I hate small talk. Breaking the ice is something else. Trying to behave like my best friend is a No-No.

Maybe it's because I'm craving for good food, muddy paw prints, a holiday and a burst of creativity.

Maybe I just need a hug to tell me that everything will be ok...

Every night I thank:

- My folks who give me the space to be myself and love me just the way I am without any conditions

- My girls.. All of them.. who spoil me, mommify me, yell at me, stand up for me and make me feel special.

- The friends. I haven't a clue of what I would do if they weren't around.

- That unknown person who let me a take a step closer to my dream. Whoever you are, wherever you are; with all my heart, I hope you're happy and get the best of everything :)

- My stars. My weirdness is beginning to look normal. Uh huh! :)

Missing the girls! Really badly! :(

Wishlist..

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I never got to hear the recording and I feel a little bad about it. But on the other hand, to be remembered in someone's happy high times leaves me with a nice feeling. Nishu, Ramuuu and Khan - Thank you so much! :)