Every item on The List may never be crossed out. There may never be the flowers, walk and song nor the giant wheel and popcorn. Or the silent moments where only the company matters. There might not even be a letter, a peck or an engaging conversation. And the compliments, smart ass comments, dinky smiles and mischief. But quite honestly, I don't care anymore.

Every experience, every bond I forge, all my fears are reaffirmed. Now, it only seems like familiar territory. Almost like I can predict things.

Does it have something to do with me? For Sure!! "Yay" if things happen, "Tsk, Tsk" if they don't and move along. I dunno how many times I've wished that some things had just never happened! Maybe I'm being selfish, but it would have saved ME a lot of trouble and drama. I'm done with pinning my hopes on anything.

After all, a cynic is a passionate person who doesn't want to be disappointed again.

Rambling on........

I miss Teddy!! I miss having a guy friend in the city who'll let me ride his bike and won't judge me all the time!

I can't wait for The Folks to be back and it isn't only about the gifts. I need to talk.

I'm tired of the flab. Why can't it all vanish as fast fast as it appeared?

I want to get to hostel as soon as possible. Prometo and I have a whole city to explore, I've to get bashed up and I want all that music with madness.

Piggy, how long do you think we'll have to wait for things to change? For the world to grow up? I'm glad that at least I have company!

Will I ever learn to keep my mouth zipped? I seem to talk for everyone.

I have to start making those gifts. I've turned into such a lazy bum, I'm getting sick of myself!

I seem to have a bad hair day EVERYDAY! What happened to my happy, hippy hair?

Have my tear glands dried up?

I want to throw the diet to one side and indulge in dark chocolate... and I think I'm going to do so tomorrow. (And this contradicts statement 3.. WHATEVER!!)

Lots of books to read. No buying till these are finished!

I want strawberry body lotion. I want, I want, I want!!

For no fault of mine, no instigation from my side, the past just pops right up! Eh! Most of the times I burst out laughing. Today, I re-realised that I would never do it to anyone else :)

Life goes on.........

The List!

My Funny Valentine - Frank Sinatra
Something - The Beatles (There are just a lot of them so I'll stick to one)
The Way You Look Tonight - Tony Bennett
Unchained Melody - The Righteous Brothers
Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman - Bryan Adams
Don't Wanna Miss A Thing - Aerosmith
Can't Help Falling in Love With You - Elvis Presley
Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton
Fields of Gold - Sting
This Never Happened Before - Paul McCartney
Speak Softly Love, Love Story, Can't Take My Eyes Off Of You - Andy Williams
Besame Mucho - Andrea Bocelli
Love Will Keep Us Alive - The Eagles
Yellow - Coldplay
I'd Love You To Want Me - Lobo
Annie's Song - John Denver
Dream A Little Dream Of Me - The Mamas and The Papas
Top Of The World - The Carpenters

And of course

Pretty Woman - Roy Orbison

Till then I shall strum my guitar and sing them for my favourite person - Me!:)

SMS Time

"Ms. Herbasoraus ******* rhymeth!:)
Bhery nice, shweet chikakababs!
Thou art the greatest rhymer,
Since god maketh the pied piper!:P"


Toot Toot!!

Ha! Just when I thought that I will learn the art of masking my feelings, everything goes right out of the window! But you know what? It doesn't matter!! When I speak my heart out, it makes me feel a lot lighter and less complicated. And anyway I've been told that I shouldn't try and talk like someone. It doesn't suit me. I should remain the chatterbox that I am.. and say what I need to say :P

Random!

And I hope it was the last one that rolled down early this morning. Sometimes, it's just not worth it. And big deal if things don't always turn out to be the way you would like them to. There's just so much more to live for!

We are back to being happy people.. a tad inexpressive maybe but happy. Let them all be remembered in the hearts. *Smiles*

M for The Favourite-st

When I was 12 and wanted a pajama party every weekend, She said "Familiarity breeds contempt."
I threw a fit and refused to talk to her for days.

When I refused to eat what she made and craved for junk food, She said "When you move out, this is what you'll miss the most."
I shared my food with Lyks.

When I told her about my object of affection, She said "Don't go overboard."
I smirked and thought to myself, "You obviously haven't felt like this ever."

When my best friend walked out of my life, She said "There are some characteristics every individual inherits from his/her family. It isn't good nor is it bad. Accept it and move on."
I was too teary eyed to pay attention to what she really meant.

When I told her about my first job, She said "I would have been more excited if it was an admission letter to one of your dream schools. I just hope you know what you're doing."
I vowed to never share any of my happy times with her.

***************************************************************************************

My pajama party friends and I are not in touch anymore. We saw the threads loosening in school itself.

The time that I stayed by myself, all that I wanted was a home cooked meal.

The object of affection and I split ways pretty soon and I knew that there were some things I would never ever repeat.

I can barely manage any relationship that exists in my life and it's accepted.

I quit my job to get back to studying... at one of my dream schools... and I have never been this satisfied with life.


It amazes me how She knew everything. Experience perhaps?

But when I was unsure about my future and didn't know which path to take, She said "In a country that wants more engineers and doctors and that's all that surrounds you, find the courage to follow your heart. I will stand by you."
I listened...and I don't regret it one bit!

When I told her about all my goals and dreams, She said nothing and patiently heard heard me out.
I felt like someone finally understood me; that I am capable of achieving a lot.

She is truly the wind beneath my wings.