I like that blog I follow. It brightens up my mood no matter what. It makes me realize that there are things that I take for granted and yet it makes me smile because I know what the writer is talking about. Almost like a whack on the side of the head. A nice kind of a whack. Most importantly, I feel something stir inside for a brief moment everyday and if you were me you would understand why that takes centre stage in my life as of now. I hold onto that moment. I need it for my well being. Today's post talks about "Saying Thanks". Gratitude. The most beautiful thing about being thankful is that everyone is in a win-win situation... and the world just feels that much happier. And for all you cynics and pessimists out there, *tthhbbp*. I teach 4 year olds for a living. The first lesson we learn is to be happy within. It is only then that you can create without.

Starting here, I'm going to spread some cheer, love and thankfulness every single day. The mind is already buzzing with ideas.

Right now, a big shout out to two people who have become an indispensable part of my inner circle. First, my very understanding, smart, fun, mommy-like, unbelievably efficient mentor. You inspire me to reach out for the stars and make sure that I have a fab time while doing so. Thank you for the love, support, patience and pieces of banana pound cake :)

And Ms. DTQ, you're undoubtedly the most "sorted out" 21 year old I know. We both know that this relationship goes beyond the four walls of school. Be it our times at Peco's, our common love for music and art, post beer adventures or just the conversations on life and other things... I am grateful that you landed up one fine August morning.

Even gooey chocolate cake wouldn't make me feel this good inside :)

"Loving someone is the simplest thing you can do. Love is never complicated. If any relationship in your life is twisted and turned with numerous complications, it's probably not worth your time or effort."

Something my dad told me many years ago which stuck like glue. Right now, I seem to fall back upon it very often. I feel the tighter I hold on to some things the more they slip away. Like sand in my fist. Maybe I should just spread my palm and let it all fly away.

Growing apart is a huge part of growing up. And as the years go by I know I want to forge relationships that have depth and aren't based a bunch of good memories. I need my time and space to gain a sense of equilibrium. 5 weeks of zoning out should do me some good.

Glass Half Empty

It seemed that way. All the symptoms were present. I was ready to cut off from the world. I like those little breaks I get. My indifference folder would swell up as I would enter a state of limbo. All things.. good or bad.. neglected. The stage was set. And then, it passed me. Skipped me like I didn't exist and moved on with the wind while I was left far behind. My thoughts have been spiraling ever since.

Pettiness and egos take the front seat while relationships are bumped off. From the eyes of this 24 year old, some slices of the world seem insane and murky. The same old inner conflict rears its ugly head and I'm caught in a moment I can't get out of. Snap, snap, turn caustic, pass snide remarks, stay defensive and cynical and at the end of the day, be contrite about what's happening. Why couldn't that phase just take me along with it? Listlessness is a familiar lane for me and I would've known exactly what to do. My indifference folder did have enough space. Right now, I feel like stooping real low and in a burst of immaturity, giving it all back in full measure...

Whoever this is, whatever has taken over, I don't like it. But I want to live it all and let it die a natural death. And then....


repent in leisure.

If memories could be canned, would they also have expiry dates? If so, I hope they last for centuries.

- Chungking Express

Lazy Confessions

* I am incapable of dealing with: Noise, educated adults who refuse to think, men who talk rubbish and blame it on alcohol, hair in food and lizards.

* I like the one-on-one time that I spend with certain people. It helps me build relationships. I hate it when those people try to mix my worlds.

* I like biking because it's something I can do by myself. I can be away from people and there is nothing like exploring a place on a bicycle.

* I'm in love with Robert Plant's voice and I wish that someday a guy (who spells properly) would sing/dedicate Thank You to me.

* "Letting go" is probably one of the simplest things I can do.

* If you have touched my life in any way, chances are that no matter what you do in the future, I will still remember the good times and smile.

* Summer is far more likable than any other season.

* The sibling and I have extremely different tastes and takes on life but we share one of the healthiest relationships I have ever known. It perhaps is the most special too.

* Thank heavens I have an ear for music. It is one of the few things that will stick with me.

* I'm often described as quirky, crazy, weird and I'm grateful that my parents just let me be.

* Teaching makes me wanna burst with happiness.

* I cannot bear to see paper cut crookedly.

* I'm pretty useless when it comes to small talk. But I can manage to be pleasant.

* I want to live for today, I want to roll in the hay.