I don't know if it is just me or there actually is too much love in the air for anyone to handle. Every where I turn, I only see pink hearts and mush. People are getting married, celebrating anniversaries, putting up photographs with their better halves yada yada.... Gets the machinery going in my head.
Single and unavailable. That's how I described myself for the last I-don't-know-how-many years. There was just something so powerful about the phrase. It felt good to just not belong to anyone. Yes, there were periods of drama but my indifference finally won (phew!) and life went on. Till I figured something wasn't okay.
Emotionally Dead. I couldn't get myself to care about another person. That is to say that I would be nice, courteous, helpful but that was it. I didn't treasure any memories or emotions when my day ended. Any signs of a guy acting strange or obsessive would set off the alarms and all I could tell myself is: Put your sneakers on and runnnn!. So much so, I held on firmly to my belief that people are annoying and the lesser I have to do with them, the better it was for me. And with that, I murdered my social life. But now the times they are a-changin'
I'm learning to be more open to new people. No, I'm not a snob. Just that I'm always at one end of the spectrum. I can't ever find a balance but hey, I'm trying! and the truth is..... it feels good. They say that this is the age that women sub-consciously start pairing themselves with men... something like picking the best of the lot. Maybe it's true, I don't know but at least I'm sure that I am finally going with the flow and making a sincere attempt to stop being judgmental. Some things stay... Some I can compromise on...
A song that I heard this evening put me in a really good mood. It's gonna be a fun year. I can feel it in my fingers, toes, bones, in the air
Maybe the "un" bit from my tag is finally falling off :)
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It's good to hear...
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