For Today, I Thank:

Pits: Whiny or not, you're my little baby

DBS: Wah! Happiness you are.

Agi: We can talk anywhere, anytime :)

And All: I swear we'll go for a really good flick.. definitely not "by chance" :)

Maruti: I was at ease, I know you were too and it felt really good :)

Cookie Boy: Getting to know you is delightful! It's all cool.

Rith: Because you're the sunshine of my life.

Dhols: Because you're just always there. And that laugh makes me laugh.

The Brats: For the welcome I got. *Muah* on your little noses.

Ro: Because you've got yourself a new number. You know how much it means to me :P

Ma: Just because I feel like it! :)

"I want to live in an era where I would have a simple love story woven out by my Prince Charming. There would be bells, moonlit walks, candlelight, star gazing, sitting under apple trees and reading poetry, strumming the guitar and singing, flowers, candy, one glass of milkshake with two straws, holding hands, spontaneous hugs and kisses, hot flushes, comfortable silence and those moments when time stops still. Alas, in the end you know that if wishes were horses, beggars would ride. But for the person you are, you continue to stay in love with love, believe in smiles, believe in rainbows, believe in happy endings, believe in magic. Most importantly, just believe."

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It's amazing what sleep can do to you. Or maybe it was the conversation before I slept. Yeah, come to think of it, it was just that.

I'll rewind a little. When I woke up this morning, there were these thoughts that kept troubling my mind. It just kept going back to the same old thing. What went wrong, what could've been different, why?? Some parts felt nice, some crummy and others were being pushed into the don't-think-about-it category. Overall, I felt like I was gonna laugh about all of it with tears in my eyes. Then a chat window opened up and though I put up quite a struggle to suppress all that I was going through and why I felt that way, I gave in. Sometimes I hate myself for being expressive. But then that's how I am built. Unknowingly, a lot opened up for me in that conversation. Most importantly, acceptance.

It's funny how when you go through a rough patch, you turn cynical about things around you, beat yourself hard, play the blame game, feel like pond scum or arrogant and irrespective of what anyone else says or does, heart of hearts you know you want to reach out to that one person. All the while long, you ask yourself one question - Was it really worth it?

It was. Every dinky, daft and delightful bit. It may have not been the way I wished for it to be, I may have not got all that I wanted, given all that I could have but if I look back, I know at that point of time, I was truly happy and nothing will ever change that.

I doubt if you will ever read this and if you don't it's okay :) It's just to say thank you for being a part of my life; For being a pain, a dumdum, a confidant, a friend. For holding me close, however brief a period, and showing me those levels of happiness that border on insanity. Like I told you once, it is probably illegal :) We may never share all that we did, may never have our silly fights, arguments, drama, random conversations again or spend a moment together but I think it's fair that we make our choices without an ounce of bitterness. And smile because it happened :)

And a huge hug to a mad girl living in Hyd who believes in rainbows, butterflies, sunshine, sugar and spice and everything nice. We're so alike! Muah!! :)

Into My Own

One of my wishes is that those dark trees,
So old and firm they scarcely show the breeze,
Were not, as 'twere, the merest mask of gloom,
But stretched away unto the edge of doom.

I should not be withheld but that some day
into their vastness I should steal away,
Fearless of ever finding open land,
or highway where the slow wheel pours the sand.

I do not see why I should e'er turn back,
Or those should not set forth upon my track
To overtake me, who should miss me here
And long to know if still I held them dear.

They would not find me changed from whom they knew--
Only more sure of all I thought was true.

- Robert Frost

Ah! That nice feeling envelopes me yet again :) That sense of achievement, pat-on-my-back kind of buzz is running through every bit of me, body and soul. It's amazing what a submission on time can do to me. H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S! I still have a bunch of assignments to clear up but this is a start.

The much awaited three day weekend has ended. I chilled out on Saturday. Took in the sun and spent time doing things I love. Felt like the cat's meow in my own little world. The weather was amazing in the evening and I was out with one of my girls... oh and I discovered things in my wardrobe that I decided to try on. My jeans finally got some rest. Nice! :) Initially, I was a little conscious but settled down soon. All of Sunday witnessed the great baking event. 7 batches of cookies and hardly any left to munch now. Pits, I promise to deliver your share this weekend. The others are on hold. Indulged in some retail therapy - sureshot path to extreme joy and then picked up Radio Partner and brought her back home. We can talk and talk and still talk some more. There are very few people I want to know for the rest of my life and she's definitely one of them. In fact this weekend even saw me weighing a couple of other people in my life. Good or downright mean, I shall reserve my comments for now. *koff* coming back... Spoke to Hari b**y... that boy makes me very happy :) I'll come "dheere dheere" to see you, don't you worry. Woke up to a wonderful Monday morning. No, 26th Jan, 15th Aug and 2nd Oct are not mere holidays for me. I attach a set of emotions to all three days and I feel blessed every single moment to have been born in this country. Bunked work to finish my assignment. I'm looking forward to the coming weekend. and the next 'coz of people coming to my city... and the next 'coz I'll be out celebrating the jinxedness.. Yay!:).. and the next 'coz there's some adventure sport planned out.... and the next 'coz.. it goes on and on. There's just so much to do, to say, to see.... to live for! The heart is extremely gladdened!

And I had one of the most satisfying conversations with my mom on the bike. I love what our relationship has grown into. Ma, you're the best!

:)

On My Playlist....

They're my favourites. Period.

Ah Hunnnnnnnnnnnnn

I can't figure out what's happening. I feel calm and tranquility and yet I'm restless and irritable. Almost like the fusion of the forces is throwing me off track. Or maybe there's a whirling dervish hiding somewhere. Pthooie!