This is on my mind.

27th September - Gave ma my time, spent the evening with friends.

28th September - Spent the day with the family. Unfortunately the NGO was closed so I couldn't meet the kids.. will make up for it tomorrow. Met Rith and V. Dinner with family friends and had a mad, mad, mad evening!

29th September - Took out time for the "clearing up" conversation. Gave the other party a fair chance... and that is a real big deal for me :)

30th September, 1st October, 2nd October, 3rd October - Nothing's planned. I like that impulse clouds my senses and I act on the spur of the moment. Something good will come out of it.

Why restrict it to a week? Why can't it be everyday? Like one random act where you think of someone other than yourself...

Whether we receive or not in the end, there's nothing like opening up and loving the world :)

Love you, Tannie... I know you're blinking brightly up there and watching what your badmaash is upto :)

I Like...

"Love is friendship set on fire." - unknown

One of those moments where I can't express myself. I don't want to but I still want to. Weird. Just a time where my head feels crystal clear. My fly paper like memory is working in my favour. Where I belong. Where my face has frozen. Where I look for no confessions, admissions, explanations, interpretations. Because I felt it, sensed it and I know. I just know.

:) - The million dollar kind!

From You To Me....

Tu Soche Yeh Zindagi Yeh Na Badlegi Kabhi
Main Sochoon Sab Badalta Hai, Tu Na Badlegi Kabhi
Main Socho Tu Hi Tu, Mera Koi Aur Nahin
Tu Soche Main Hoon Tera, Bas Tera Koi Aur Nahin
Koi Aur Ho Ya Na Ho, Tu Hai, Main Hoon... Bas...

I'm a cellphone-facebook-gtalk-internet addict and it makes me feel daft! I'm going to be away for a while. Rediscovering land lines, ink and paper, music with Leo, travelling and doing something more worthwhile with my life.

Change is always welcome...

I'm going....

going...

gone.

Tomorrows rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetimes argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

Here we go :

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

Oh yes I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I've been prayin' for
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

Look all around, there's nothin' but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin' but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Here is the rainbow I've been prayin' for
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

I love cold weather. Nip in the air, I almost start chattering and try to keep myself warm while my nose is about to freeze.

I love music that has a lot of guitar work and a piano involved. But I'm more of a lyric-y person than a melody person.

I love how my lotion smells. Chocolate-y and creamy.

I love the food I cook, the goodies I bake.

I love my pink blanket and how it keeps me company through the night.

I love my bay window and how beautiful the world looks from that space. Like nothing seems wrong with it.

I love the way I snap in and out of "reality".

I love the molecules of magic that my city is home to. I love being typically Bangalorean.

I love how movies and books trigger off emotions in me.

I love the legs :P... and the hands

I love beer. I love that my folks know that I love beer.

I love the school I went to.

I love things british-y

I love putting "y"s at the end of words to make up adjectives.

I love black and white photographs, yellow musty pages of dog eared books, postcards, beads, bookmarks and tic-tocks.

I love Andy for the peace he brings me.

I love DB's nose.

I love all that has once been a part of my life.

Finally watched it. I thought it was beautiful...that is to say the least. Highly recommended on a rainy day when you just want to curl up and melt.

Makes me wonder about how stories happen in life.

So I found this online. Dunno how some things can be as morbid as they are beautiful...

"One day you'll find someone who'll love you very, very much; who'll give you the stars, sun, moon... just about anything you ask for. More importantly, who'll love you for every cookie you bake."

On some days I love my mum a lot more than usual.

After a crazy day with a lot for me to deal with, I can't wait for the explosion to take place. How I wish I was born 40 years ago...in a place I've never been before. November's fast approaching. My golden birthday is going to be the turning point of my life. I give myself 425 days. All of this is temporary. All of it. Because in the end we die and it works out just fine. It's a horrible feeling to not belong anywhere or to anyone. One day I will find solace in that thought. It will change the day I put a full stop.

For Them

Thank you -

Onjus: For not having a mean bone in your body, for being uncomplicated and not holding onto the past.

Dinku: For putting up with all that drama, for remembering little things, for being there every time I need to talk and all the jokes we share.

And All: For all the phone calls, for the times you've made me laugh, for just being a good person at heart.

AD: For not judging me, for giving me the space to be 5 yrs and all of 22 and for all the crazy times we've shared.

It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all :)

My goal in life is to be as good a person as my dog already thinks I am

- Unknown

Knutz, Muffin... My little munchkins... You guys really make my world go round...

I wish I could just make up my mind about all those things that I avoid on a normal day because I don't want to upset myself. I wish I was love handle-less... I now look square. I wish I could just take off. Reminds me of that very weird Cadbury's Eclairs advertisement.... Heads exploding all over the place... I imagine something like that very often while riding my bike... Where I would suddenly explode and disappear. Crazy! I wish I could be mean... I can be sarcastic, extremely rude, blunt, irritating but I find it difficult to be mean. I wish I was insanely attracted to someone. I wish it was mutual. I wish the attraction would then accommodate a whole lot of love. Pseudo relationships don't count. I have a lot going for me, I know it... but somewhere something's missing.

Enough. For once, my heart and head agree.

Of Conversations!

Lazy Saturday afternoon. Ma and I are watching Rock On!!!

Ma: I get it! You want your life to be like a movie na? Meeting friends, planning crazy things, making music, spreading the love?

Me (all excited because mommy knows me so well): Yeahhhhhh! Exactly! How did you know? It's one of those things I really want....

Ma: Haan.. very good... But that's not life. Life is this - cleaning and cutting methi leaves. Thik hai?

*POP* went my bubble.

That, for you, is my mother. Sarcastic and adorable! :)