Confessions of A Psycho Weirdo

I hate unfinished conversations.

I can continue to build my stationery collection for as long as I live... even if I don't use half the things I own - The collection includes push pins, gem clips, binder clips in bright colours, a calligraphy set I don't know how to use, empty notebooks... it goes on... and I still believe I have space for more.

I own a bunch of over sized Tees because I think they're THE most comfortable things to wear.

I'm a sucker for love stories. Happy endings make me feel like gooey, melted chocolate inside.

I cry only when I'm frustrated, not sad.

Nothing irks me more than bad spellings. NOTHING!

I love dogs but I love Labs a little more than the rest.

I'd rather go on a holiday on my own than be accompanied by grouchy people.. and the not-so-grouchy.

I hate, hate, hate men in socks and floaters. Yuk!

I feel blessed because I figured out what I wanted to do in life when I was 14 years old and I'm doing it.

I love Marie biscuit dipped in water.

I can talk to myself the whole day and find it absolutely normal.

I hate having a bath but have one anyway because I hate filth more.

I pretend to not know a lot of things.

I have pretty feet and I know it.

As a kid, I used to treat my mind as a separate entity.

I am Hair-o-phobic.

I associate people with colours.

I suffer from depression eating.

I'm obsessed with my hands.

I'm dangerous when I'm PMSing

I like being honest and law abiding.

I love drama.. I'm quite aptly called Drama Queen :)

Bored. Broken. Broke. Indifferent. Frustrated. Hungry. Crazy. Worthless. Meaningless. Structured. Passion-less. Normal. Gross. Weird. Empty. Rock Bottom. Fell Hard. Bounced Back Higher. Energized. Pensive. Free. Alive!

The Jinxed Club

As the title suggests, this is all about the Jinxed Club. Have you ever noticed that sometimes things don't turn out the way you want them to (irrespective of all the effort and careful planning you put in)? And with regard to a particular area, everything goes wrong far too many times for you to call it a coincidence? Like the drama ALWAYS leads to an anti-climax? Yessa! 'Jinxed' it is.

The story dates back to Class XII. That was the time Chims, DB, Pits and I were moving from the "we hang out together" phase to the "You-need-to-know-EVERYTHING-about-my-life" phase. School and PUC were going great, nobody could point a finger at us on the academics front, we had our share of movies, mischief, lunches et al and the evenings were characterized by aimless loafing, gossip sessions, meetings at the bakery and trips to Forum. So what was missing? Our individual 'Love Lives' were non-existent! On a scale of 1 to 10, the people behind us were never more than a -376 and the ones we swooned over always came back to us with a smile and said "Man! You are such a fabulous buddy". Eh! Wtf? It just always happened! We were always the "shoulders to lean on", "pillars of strength" blah blah. But we were never the chosen ones. Thus, this mysterious phenomenon laid the foundation of the Jinxed Club.

Well, things did change a little as time passed by. I was the first to leave the Jinxed Club [and the first one to return.. this time wiser and experienced :)]. Pits found somebody in college and they parted ways in a year's time. Chims- The Perfectionist met someone who matched her intelligence and we knew our girl was in safe hands. We didn't mind granting her the status of a dormant member. DB probably has the most amusing tale to tell. She bonds with the family like super glue but manages just about a 'Hi' in his presence now. Then came the, if I may say so, no strings attached types:)Pits, DB and I wanted to have some fun without being tied down. Although it was exciting at first, we soon realised it wasn't worth it (and thank god for that). It was back to the drawing board and we haven't made too much progress since then.. and deep down inside, I know why!

The point is that from our schoolgirl days to now, a lot has been edited, included and deleted. With countless episodes and all that weird luck, the four of us have only grown closer and understand each other better. Even if the jinx decides to leave any of us, we know we will always share a friendship that has no room for pretence; where you could laugh, cry, scream, yell, act crazy and still be loved all the same. Perhaps it stems from the fact that we've seen the worst and best sides of each other and we're okay with it. So.. our conversations have ample time dedicated to 'The perfect guy and date' topic, our clubhouse is an autorickshaw, we smile at the thought of compliments and like to believe that we are an enchanting bunch.. but hey! Everything happens for a reason and when the time's right, the jinx will vanish on its own. Till then, we'll stay single and unavailable, whine, empathize, laugh with one another and continue making our grand plans to achieve the ultimate end- Good Cakes :). Love you clowns!